d-e-a-n

2006-10-22T02:00:00.000+08:00

maybe i had letten go after all.
hmmmm..
or maybe i like to dwell and emo on the past.
contradictions is me.

2006-10-16T18:37:00.000+08:00

emo emo emo.
why me?

2006-10-05T16:14:00.000+08:00

the night kills again.
i was reading.
the ramblings the title spell.
by a certain author.
bittersweet memories it fills.
its just another random night.

2006-10-02T14:33:00.000+08:00

I don't know your face no more.
Or feel your touch that I adore.
I don't know your face no more.
It's just a place, I'm looking for.
We might as well be strangers in another town.
We might as well be living in a different world.
We might as well.
I don't know your thoughts these days.
We're strangers in an empty space.
I don't understand your heart.
It's easier, to be apart.
We might as well be strangers in another town.
We might as well be living in another town.
We might as well.
We might as well be strangers! Be strangers.
For all I know of you now.

2006-09-29T00:31:00.000+08:00

everyone's emo.
tts the trend these days.
QUICK!
join in the crowd!

-

tips on how to be emo.
1. listen to super duper emo songs. esp chinese songs.
2. stone wherever whenever.
3. crop yourself at home.
4. be alone always.
5. lie on your bed and think of the past.
6. stay up late in the night.

2006-09-28T14:56:00.000+08:00

quote of the day

'when i was younger, i wondered why men fag so much, now after i had this r/s, i wonder men fag so lil.'

2006-09-27T03:00:00.000+08:00

sometimes.
i think im killing myself with all these.
nah.
dun worry.
i wont commit sucide. =)

2006-09-25T22:48:00.000+08:00

i love long bus rides.
allows me to think.
see random places i nv been to.
see random people.

2006-09-24T03:26:00.000+08:00

Broken, this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you, so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go, so dishonestly
Leave a note, for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

2006-09-20T13:57:00.000+08:00

last night was crap cause of my freaking results.
so i decided to hit the bed at 1am.
but fuck i couldnt get to slp till like 4am?
tossing turning thinking.

it always times like this i could pick up the phone.
i gt none to call.
maybe i have but i juz wouldnt wanna bother ppl abt this shits.

no im not gonna get all emo over here.
cause its the day.
theres nth i could do anything abt it now.
next sem is my only hope left.
work harder dean.
i noe i can do it. =)

whenever u miss someone.
u miss not only the person.
u'll miss,
the time spent together.
the places.
the smell.
the laughter.
the things we did.
and all those precious moments.
i miss.

2006-09-20T00:35:00.000+08:00

fuck i got my result.
Its juz a freaking C.
i can juz fuck off.
go to hell and rot.

2006-09-18T01:38:00.000+08:00

I drink milk by buckets, dun even fucking bother to pour into cups. Its like drinking plain water for me. LOL! Due to the increasing price of my fav. marigold milk and my unquenchable thirst, my mum bought a SUPER DUPER HUGE bottle 2 litre of pure fresh milk. Hahaha! She told me must cut cost, damn expensive if i keep doing this. doink~ O_o

people are damn weird nowadays but im loving it. =)

2006-09-17T02:23:00.000+08:00

you're beautiful.
standing beside you makes me radiant too.
if only...

cool rite?
i heard it when i saw FAMILY MAN on channel 5 juz nw.
bt i dun think ppl would be so romantic and say this. LOL.
it only happens on TV.
fuck i sound damn gay.
wahahaha!

2006-09-16T16:48:00.000+08:00

potato chips.
milk.
oreo.
ice cream.
milo.
im becoming a couch potato.

sometimes i dunno wat am i thinking.

2006-09-16T03:09:00.000+08:00

I should have accepted the truth just like the way we accept Mr Issac Newton was reading a book and an apple dropped on his head. We can possibly ask why newton sat under an apple tree rather than a durian tree. LOL! =)

anyway i learned a new term today.
LMAO.
laugh my ass off.
wtf.

2006-09-15T05:11:00.000+08:00

its freaking 5am and i cant slp!
the day's my night. the night's my day.
finally i got a job! (hopefully)
its at molly's some irish pub in boat quay opp. eski bar.
work = money!

btw my computer's a slut.
caused it's screwed.

i noe its good to love and be love.
but im sick and tired of this lovey dovey shits!
fuck cupid!

2006-09-14T00:56:00.000+08:00

I once knew a girl in the years of my youth,
With eyes like the summer of beauty and truth.
But in the morning I fled; left a note and it read,
"Someday you will be loved."
I can not pretend that I felt any regret,
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend.
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread,
Someday you will be loved.
You’ll be loved, you’ll be loved.
Like you never have known.
And the memories of me will seem more like bad dreams.
Just a series of blurs like I never occurred.
Someday you will be loved.
You may feel alone when you’re falling asleep,
And every time tears roll down your cheeks.
But I know your heart belongs to someone you’ve yet to meet.
And someday you will be loved.
You’ll be loved, you’ll be loved.
Like you never have known.
And the memories of me will seem more like bad dreams.
Just a series of blurs like I never occurred.
Someday you will be loved.
You’ll be loved, you’ll be loved.
Like you never have known.
And the memories of me will seem more like bad dreams.
Just a series of blurs like I never occurred.
Someday you will be loved.
Someday you will be loved.

2006-09-13T02:52:00.000+08:00

i nv dared gave promises again.

2006-09-11T03:43:00.000+08:00

no.
its nt sounds.
nt pictures.
its juz words that kill.
stabs.

2006-09-11T03:32:00.000+08:00

the night.
always so peaceful and quiet.
it kills.
silently.
slowly.

no im not going to pity myself.
i nv will.
move on.

2006-09-11T02:08:00.000+08:00

'What" will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

2006-09-06T01:27:00.000+08:00

i've been a bastard, been bastard too.
vice versa.
cant blame aint no one.

2006-09-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

if it aint so important.
i wouldnt do it.

2006-09-02T01:42:00.000+08:00

hey. i think i saw u.
hmmm.. guess you are doing real fine.
which is good.
but i dun feel anything sad or watsoever.
=)

i miss you.
but i dun have any reason to like or love u anymore.

2006-08-27T20:11:00.000+08:00

it's one of those days,
tt i need someone
to hold and rely on.

2006-08-21T21:10:00.000+08:00

how are you nowadays?
fine, i guess.
do you know that i miss u?
=(

oh shit, emo again.
where's the reset button?

2006-08-13T01:42:00.000+08:00

those days were nv forgotten.

2006-08-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

you. brought me to paradise.
you. left me in hell.
fuck.
gonna be stuck there for real long.

2006-08-02T01:03:00.000+08:00

hey.
dun cry cause its over.
smile cause it happened.
=)

2006-07-31T23:38:00.000+08:00

maybe i just buried them.
nv really left them behind.

2006-07-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

life so full of up and down nowadays.
right ppl?
my lifes nt too bad though.
i think.

u take care.
gd luck to another.

2006-07-23T14:27:00.000+08:00

B-O-R-I-N-G

2006-07-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

shes the most important woman in my life.
i had a fucking big quarrel with her juz now.
i said stuffs tt shouldnt be said.
im sorry.
does she noe tt?
no. i wont say it.
why?
cause she had a lousy attitude which i hate.
i guess things will never be the same again.

anyway shes my mum.

2006-07-20T17:12:00.000+08:00

im just a fucking dreamer.
fucking emo.
cause of u.

2006-07-19T09:30:00.000+08:00

im juz concern u noe?
=)

??

2006-07-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

??????????????????????????????????

dumb

2006-07-13T19:07:00.000+08:00

laughing out loud.
tts gd. tts gd.

xin

2006-07-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

congrats wan xin!
*clap clap!*

2006-07-10T01:14:00.000+08:00

dumb: burdens can be shared.
u dun need to swallow it down urself.
they are lotsa ppl caring abt u.
keep smiling! dun frown!

2006-07-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

laugh my way through even if i still feel like shit.
i should juz have stayed.
nv should i take another step.

2006-07-06T10:49:00.000+08:00

lousy mood.
lousy attitude.
it aches.
i dun feel good.

2006-07-05T16:16:00.000+08:00

i juz kept my heads down and keep on walking.
not breathing a word.
keeping shut.

emo unemo

2006-07-05T10:49:00.000+08:00

emo.
unemo.
emo.
unemo.
emo.
unemo.

my life's like a stock market.

chalet

2006-07-02T17:33:00.000+08:00

tons of alcohol.
games.
world cup.
tons of alcohol.
emo.
pukes.
drink riding.
macdonalds
pukes.
sleep.
hangover
home.
its fun man.

day

2006-07-01T13:35:00.000+08:00

no its nt gonna be like this.
i prefer it this way.

emo

2006-06-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

im really gd at hiding emotions.
can i?

night

2006-06-28T21:54:00.000+08:00

finally can sleep early tonight.
cause!
NO WORLD CUP TODAY!
LOL!

its complicated.

meaning

2006-06-27T22:05:00.000+08:00

i guess i knew wat u meant.
we were nv to be.
take care.
sorry.

life

2006-06-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

fucked life
fucked sch
fucked tired
GREAT frenz

hope

2006-06-25T22:05:00.000+08:00

no hope. no disappointment.

slp

2006-06-25T16:36:00.000+08:00

slp too much oso tired.
nv slp oso tired.
im always tired.
LOL!

sure?

2006-06-25T01:33:00.000+08:00

nah. maybe im juz aint good enough.
slp tight.

miss

2006-06-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

i bit into a lemon.
i miss you.
i cant do anything.
can i?

gd

2006-06-23T00:24:00.000+08:00

goodnight.
i really miss you.
=)

finally

2006-06-22T09:03:00.000+08:00

finally i got everthing off my chest.
i dun care wat the ending might be.
i just wan you to be happy tats all.
*smiles*

fever

2006-06-20T20:50:00.000+08:00

argh.
im sick.
having fever.
WORLD CUP FEVER!

feel

2006-06-18T14:46:00.000+08:00

tell me.
show me.
how u feel.
i nv had the courage to pick up again.

why had i became like this?
i dunno.

maybe

2006-06-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

maybe wat u said was true.
i nv really got to know u well.

guru

2006-06-15T20:35:00.000+08:00

*ooooooommmmmmmmmmmmm~~~~*

dean the guru predicting the world cup winner of 2006~

SPAIN!

the Uefa cup and Champions League winner are all Spanish clubs this yr.
so its gonna be Spain's yr! a treble of cups.

*ooooooooommmmmmm~~~*

friends

2006-06-15T19:10:00.000+08:00

oh.
hello.
bla bla bla bla.....
ok than cya around.
bye

*turns head*
hmmm wat his name sia?! when do i noe him??! o_O
tts wat happening ins ch nowadays..

RV

2006-06-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

sign in at 8.29am 57secs. wats with the sch system sia.. can be late for even a single freaking sec la! rubbish.
went to watch RV with tt dumb cow! tell ya. its a damn freaking funny show. its worth the money! watch it ya ppl. sent her home and met jason on the way. and complain complain complain abt sch.
same place but not much motivation for me to go there anymore. she left. my cliques broken up into like 3 groups. different paths of studying. BORING! haha.
complain complain complain. tts only wat i can do!

dumb cow: u really great with numbers sia! stop being contradictive will ya. eat more grass can become thinner. tts wat Doctor Emo said. lol!

small

2006-06-14T08:48:00.000+08:00

the small world of mine.
people come.
people go.
regrets?
sure. lotsa.
turn back time?
no. it doesnt
memories.
some faded.
some aches.
some sweet.
look forward.
days will pass easier. =)
emo day for me i guess.

mad

2006-06-13T13:49:00.000+08:00

mad shit

shopping list

2006-06-12T22:17:00.000+08:00

shopping list.

adidas jacket
levis jeans
pair of new shoes
many shirts
belt
birkys
new perfume
girlfriend??!!

Gonna cost a bomb for all that man! i noe im vain.. wahahaha.

nah. im joking about the last one! LOL!

fag

2006-06-12T14:50:00.000+08:00

i promise i would buy my own fag so that i wont wait freaking long in this hot weather!
wahahahaha!
hot weather made me cranky and hyper!
ppl having their term breaks now!
sch so damn uncrowded of ppl!
and im loving it.
maybe im addicted to being alone.
and im loving it.

blow

2006-06-11T18:46:00.000+08:00

blow hot
blow cold
hmmmm
why are u saying all these at times?

2006-06-10T11:43:00.000+08:00

it doesnt pay well to be nice..

sleepy

2006-06-09T13:48:00.000+08:00

a rainy day = damn freakin sleepy day!!!!!!

dream

2006-06-08T20:58:00.000+08:00

make me dream.
i dun mind if it's unreal too.

concern

2006-06-08T09:24:00.000+08:00

Thanks for your concern you know who you are..... =)

FYP

2006-06-07T18:08:00.000+08:00

late late late
fag fag fag
eat eat eat
flash flash flash

tts wat FYP is all abt!

*you should juz try to forget and carry on with life
* her again?! so long le lor!
*no point la! she forgotten u long way back!
*she alrdy have someone in mind
all these are juz some of the things my fren told me
i know that too
but i cant
i can only keep on trying whatelse

hectic

2006-06-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

a busy day makes me tired and would not think so much...

she

2006-06-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

she. who held my hand warm.
she. who hugged me so tight.
she. who smelled so nice.
she. who i put in everything for.
i miss her.
does she knows that?
she dont even care now.

我还是祝福你过得好一点

over and over

2006-06-03T16:57:00.000+08:00

why must i go through this over and over again everyday?

finale

2006-05-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

finally last 2 days.
finally going back to sch.
finally really had a gd nite slp last nite since zillion yrs ago.
finally take my phone for servicing.
finally to give and take?

confused

2006-03-07T02:44:00.000+08:00

i dunno who izit. i dun wanna noe. i just hope you are doing fine.

last paper

2006-03-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

Ac was a killer, i didnt have enough time to finish as properly. really hope the lec understand wat i drawing abt.
my last paper tml finally! yes! meeting ting for movie at night i think. going to sleep early tonight and wake up early tml. i really cant get anything into my head right now. i think 5am is the best time to study. haha. hope the EM paper is easy.

p/s ross going on fri! haha! peer pressure works!

the seed growing?

intensive

2006-02-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

EM is so bloody difficult la.. how am i going to remember 52121352541 over formulas in like 2 days? die. and i had not even started AC. but i studied today man. 3 tutorials 5 hrs. haha. proud of myself. cant wait to finish my exams man. yup, sentosa with class!!! woohoo~ hope everyone would be present.

will i ever finish? u? comfortable.

2 days, 2 modules, 100 over pages

2006-02-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

ya, i shouldnt be here. should be mugging now. who cares. i have the last 2 modules of my yr 2 which are blooooody difficult. i dun even noe where to start. im so dead man. all right back to mugging.

if u nv called me that, they wouldnt.

in my mind

2006-02-26T16:21:00.000+08:00

finally, im back to blogging. Lots of things happened in the past few months. im really happy that my friends are all there for me. I thought through, if its over means its over. No point being so persistant and stuff. Time to let go, let go.

Hey, i doubt you'll read this but i really hope we still could be friends, im sorry doing all those shit to you. Im really glad that you are leading a really happy life with all those people around you. I tried hating you but it will just do more hurt to myself rather than to you. So, im really sorry.

To all the friends around me, you all were there whenever i need u all. A big thanks to you all. Thanks for lending me ur ear when i whine. haha. thanks ya. Thanks for being crazy with me when im crazy.

Innovative people.

Ross. Dun think so much k?
Gabriel. Study la. Dun keep playing! Wish u and vivi the best!
Yanjing. Thanks for all ur teaching and concern.

Zoo people.

Marcus. (Dog) All the late night gaming, dotaing, FMing.
Ting. (Hamester) All the smses, late night calls. Coffee and fag breaks.
Sherlyn. (Cow) All the rides home, when we go drink at ah neh. When we all are broke.
Debbie. (Pig) Ur shoulder when i was feeling real sick that day.
Fifi. (Cat) My long-lost twin brother!
Lijing. (Monkey) My buddy!
Qianhui. Open ur eyes when u take pics pls!

back

2005-12-20T18:08:00.000+08:00

im back